Finding Strength in Struggles

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And now what we're going to do
is we will be bringing our guest

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in. Welcome Christina. Thank you. It's very nice to be here.

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Well, wonderful to have you here. So Christina, I shared with us

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if you're a call, any moment
from your childhood that's fresh in your memory

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even today. Yeah, so it's
it's it's a part of my childhood that

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I think to find me and it's
like this very vivid memory. So I

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was born overseas. I lived in
Brazil, but I was the daughter.

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My parents were Cuban expats, so
I went to the American school and that

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provided me a certain lifestyle, you
know, living overseas. And I remember

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very clearly, I must have been
in the second grade or the third grade,

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going to school in my air conditioned
car with like some you know,

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the driver driving us to school,
and on the other side of the car

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outside was a kid my age begging
for money. I realized, like at

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that moment, you know, it's
like I didn't really do anything to deserve

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being to being the one inside the
car. I was born. I was

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just lucky that I was born to
my family, and he didn't do anything

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to deserve being begging for money on
the street. And from that moment on,

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like I think I've always had like
the sense of responsibility or the sense

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of you know, I have been
given all access to education, access to

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things that so many people haven't.
I need to do something with it.

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And that's a very clear line from
my childhood to who I am today.

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Wow, that's very profound for a
second or third grader, so you know,

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you're like seven or eight years old
exactly, and it goes back to

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very much so like, you know, be as children are more observant and

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more over our situation and surroundings than
as adults, because so many times,

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you know, especially I go to
New York all the time, and what

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I've find is that people are so
busy, they're talking on the phone and

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they're just passing, like and every
city has its own rhythm. They're walking

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at a certain pace, and you
can tell what the locals and what the

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visitors. So visitors will look around, they're curious, but local people they

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just they just keep on going.
And then that brings us back that are

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we passing through life or are we
creating awareness for ourselves and for others.

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So as you continued growing up,
did you have any specific interests? I

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did, and I think that I
well, it's funny because I went to

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college. I went to Wellesley College, and I remember calling my parents and

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saying it's like, I've decided I'm
going to be a teacher, and my

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parents says, like, that's great, but then you're gonna quit and you're

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going to go to the community college
because I'm not going to pay They were

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paying for my college for you to
be a teacher. And I believed them

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so I went in on Wall Street
instead of being a teacher. But over

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time, like everything that I did
had to do with this education side of

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things. So even in investment banking, I was the person I did mergers

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and acquisitions, and I was a
person that they would come to present to

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write the story of the company and
get things ready. So I've always been

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in that teaching communication role, and
eventually when I had my kids, I

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became a preschool teacher, much to
my parents horror. But I feel like,

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whoever it is that you are,
you'll always end up there. You

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know. It might be a different
path, or it might be bringing that

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part of you two places that maybe
you didn't realize you could have that part,

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like me and mergers and acquisitions.
But I feel like, you you

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know, if you listen to your
calling or to yourself, like you'll always

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find yourself where you need to be
very true and it's surprising, like you

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know, when you're talking about I
recall a moment then I wanted to be

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a pilot, and to be a
pilot you needed twenty twenty vision. And

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my mom she has hard issues and
all that, and she's like, oh,

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if you're going to go, you
know, this is going to impact

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my health and all that, and
I dropped it and I haven't gone back

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to being a pilot or anything like
that. But it's surprising. I was

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recently thinking about taking flying lessons,
and you're right, like, you know,

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you kind of like a go and
you find that freedom. Whatever is

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that you're looking for, it will
show up in some other form in your

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life. So tell us more about
your wall Street like, you know,

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what was your focus in college and
what did you do in finances or with

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numbers? Yeah, so people that
know me, they wouldn't be like you

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were what you know, like it
was, it was not the perfect match.

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I studied philosophy and political science again
to appease my parents and Wall Street.

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I just ended up there because they
would come to recruit at the college

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that I was at and they made
me an offer and it was great,

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and I went and I learned a
lot. You know, it was baptism

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by fire. I was not a
quantitative person, and I was still not

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a quantitative person, but but I
realized, like one of the lessons there

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is that it's just a vocabulary.
Accounting is logic and logic is philosophy,

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you know. But it's just you
use a different language to express different things.

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So they express things in assets and
liabilities. And once you understand the

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language, then you can speak it
and then you can be good at it.

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And from Wall Street I went to
Silicon Valley, So I actually worked

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in high tech way back when it
was fifty six K modems and I don't

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know if you remember that, but
those are like you dial up and I

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goes like they you know, like
it was so very slow. But here

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I was in my twenties and I
was giving talks to engineers about the technology

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that we were selling at the time. I'm not an engineer, but again,

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it's that language, right, Like
as long as I understood what needed

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to happen, Like I'm not going
to go and program the thing for them,

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but I can explain what it's going
to do because I could. I

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learned the language that they were speaking. So I feel like wherever it is

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that you end up, it's just
a matter of learning what's behind it,

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you know, like how do you
how do what language do they use to

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the communicate their skill? And then
you can learn it? And does that

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mean that I'm going to you know, I wasn't the analytical person that you

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would go to at maryl to,
you know, to do something. But

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I could if I had to,
you know, because you just learned m

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hm no. Very powerful because it's
as you mentioned that how you took philosophy.

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And so many times people are like, oh, I gotta change my

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career or manage how am I going
to do it? But those skill sets

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are very transferable. So tell me, like you know, in wal Street

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Journal, what lessons did you learn? Well, it was on Walter,

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it wasn't a journal. So I
was in doing corporate finance and acquisitions for

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Latin America and it was right during
the time of the Mexican like the Mexico

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had this really bad crisis in terms
of their economics, and I learned,

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you know, life is fickle and
cycles and companies are fickle. And one

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of my assignments that we had done
an IPO for a Brazilian company and it

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did not go well. And so
my job, because I spoke Portuguese,

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was to take you know, the
CFO of this electric company from Brazil all

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around Europe to talk to investors about
like to calm them about the investment they

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had made in that company. And
you know, a few years later the

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company was doing fantastic, and then
a few years later the government changed and

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it all went to hell again.
And then a few years later, you

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know, and I grew up in
hyper inflation. So I would go to

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a restaurant and for breakfast and they
don't even have prices on the menu because

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the prices by lunch it would change, by dinner it would change. You

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know, inflation was just completely out
of control. That was Brazils in Brazil.

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This was Brazil in the mid eighties. And then they changed the currency

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and it was like a lesson in
economics just living there. And so then

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you know, Brazil was in a
really bad place. And then Brazil became

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a superpower, and then Brazil.
So everything I feel like I learned is

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like everything has its time and everything
has its cycles. So when things are

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up, be humble, because they
will come down at some point. But

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when things are down, to be
hopeful because everything, like nothing stays the

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same. Well, that is so
true. And I like what you said

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about the IPO. And then so
many companies, you know, there are

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so many different startups. They hustle
through so that they have their investors,

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they get the investors have the initial
public offering, and then of course you

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know, they're looking for a good
entrance into the market where their stocks will

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be a good price, you know, And so many times like the production

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is, oh yeah, we'll start
out at four or five and then something

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some technology or far more or anything
is there and then all of a sudden

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you see a jump of fifty sixty
percent, and then a few days down

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into the market it crashes or flattens
out. So basically, like you know,

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what you're telling is that the stock
market, you know, sometimes it's

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up, it's down, and as
like as you keep on going. So

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having that steady state of mind can
do a lot. So sounds like that's

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what the learning you brought from.
And it goes back to your childhood.

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Yeah, And I mean, and
I'm not you know, I'm not on

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Wall Street now, so I don't
really know, but I but I do

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know that over the market from the
time that I was there to the time

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that is now is I don't know
how many times more. And then you

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know the Dow Jones and it was
back then, but in between there was

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a whole lot of ups and downs. So it's that you know, betting

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on just like a steady up is. It's kind of for me, I'm

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kind of conservative, is the way
that I view life, and not just

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investments, but just life in general. You know, I can get excited

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and do things and like just go
for it, but I know that there

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will be after that excitement, there
will be a lull, you know,

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but overall life keeps going and usually
in a good trajectory for most of us.

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Yeah, No, definitely, because
it does help thinking about it.

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Like you know what you're talking about. Investments, it's investing in yourself,

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investing in your life, investing in
others, investing in money. So anybody

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who has a decent portfolio will invest
in long term and short term, and

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you diversify. You just don't put
all your money in stock, so you

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just don't put all the money in
bonds. You diversify so if like one

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has a downfall, you'll be able
to make it up from another. So

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you mentioned that from one street you
went into another field. Tell us about

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that. So I my career has
been like very one. From Wall Street

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I went, I was on a
path and I went to Silicon Valley and

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then my company transferred me to Santiago
de Chile, and I was living there

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and I was twenty eight years old
and I was an ex pat and I

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went a little crazy. I think
I got too much responsibility and too much,

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just too much all at once,
and I ended up with a very

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serious drug addiction. And I came
back to the US and I got And

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that was like twenty something years ago. So I have a lot of compassion

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for that, Christina. You know, it's it's not who I am anymore.

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But I was suicidal. I was
and I ended up in a mental

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institution over there, and it's when
you really like it was one of the

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worst moments of my life, but
it was also one of those turning points

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when you say, Okay, this
is not working, so let me try

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something else. And again I focused
on you know, I had started a

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nonprofit in Chile, and I focused
on nonprofits. And when I had my

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kids, I've always wanted to have
a kid, you know, to have

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kids and to be a mom,
and they became my center and my my

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focus. And then I went I
felt like I was getting a PhD in

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early childhood education because I was going
to be the perfect mom, you know,

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I was going to right, which
man's like everything opposite of my poor

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parents, So you know, and
I learned so much and I got so

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into early childhood education that I became
a preschool teacher and I did that for

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many years until it became a job. And wow, that's amazing and it

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shows your affinity towards children. And
I want to take us a little back

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into because a lot of people,
So first of all, thank you for

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being vulnerable and sharing. M How
did you make that comeback from the addiction

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and being in a mental institution.
Sure, so it was I'm not an

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idiot, right, Like, I
don't think I'm an idiot. Oh,

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you're a very white the sense that
you know. I had my stomach pumped

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like four or five times, and
at some point I realized if I really

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wanted to die, I would have
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would do things. But there was
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And what I came to understand later
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I didn't know how. And it
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clearly I'm not dying right, like, because because I'm not, so,

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I might as well learn how to
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open to listening because before then you
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you know, and I was always
right. And so I just started

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listening to people and following I went
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and I did everything those people asked
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better and I was able to rebuild
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authentic to me, you know.
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it was a very difficult time for
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But from it came, you know, came this wonderful life everything that I

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want. Like I was raised that, you know, a woman can never

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be happy without a man, you
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to be and and I that that's
how I grew up. And I went

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crazy because I had just lost in
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was thirty and oh my god,
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and my biological clock is ticking and
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what led me to despair. But
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it that I was going to have
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I just I didn't know that I
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with me in order to have the
life that I always dreamed of. M

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M. What an amazing comeback that
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like, you know, this is
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that is so powerful. Yeah,
so so powerful. It's and that's just

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really really amazing. But we all
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know, and and addiction is it
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a disease that covers or that impedes
your ability to think and your ability to

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grab onto the things that are your
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this little there's like there's always like
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like a little string that you can
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you see it, if you can
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lead you to the other side.
Because you have the power inside of you.

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Nobody can make you think anything without
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absolute control, and that's absolute power, you just have to hold onto it

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so then you can start thinking and
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in twenty years later, so I
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and I started my business and my
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with cancer in October and he died
in December. You know, I'm so

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sorry to share that nothing at loss, thank you. It was it was

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seven weeks from his diagnosis to his
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remember being in the ICU with him, like holding his hand as he was,

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you know, as he was dying, and even in the middle of

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my despair because I have never felt
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love of my life. It was
a fairy tale story back from that.

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But even then, there was that
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of me that said, you know, it's like we've been we've thought our

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life was over before. There's going
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it's like that thread if you just like

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hold on to it and kind of
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take you to the next evolution of
whoever it is that you're meant to be,

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because you're you're not. Life is
not stagnan. We're always changing our

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circumstances. Changes as women. Maybe
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or maybe we have a different job, or maybe we move countries or whatever.

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It's like we can, we can
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So wow, you said that ray
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But what a loss and how did
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you come out of that? It's
it's an you know, it's a devastating

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loss. And I you know,
teenage boys and stuff, and I came

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out of that, Like grief is
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And for me I realized that,
you know, my let's say that grief

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is this size is the size of
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my life was the size of that
fist as well, right, Because

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so it's everything. There's there's no
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As time passes, my life grows, My grief doesn't change. My love

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for him doesn't change. But now
I have experiences that as much as it

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hurts that he's not there, I
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you know, my kids are still
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life around the grief becomes bigger and
then bigger and then bigger. But that

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never changes, right, The grief
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the loss is loss. You know. You can't I just can't make

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it go away. Yeah, Now, I like what you said. It's

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so profound that life grows bigger around
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my addiction or when I quit smoking
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way you feel right now is not
an indication of how you're going to feel

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in just a little bit down the
road. So know that this, like

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this is not the way, this
terribleness is not how it's always going to

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be. You know that my grief
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gonna love less or anything like that, but that intensity, I know that

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that's not how it's going to feel
forever. Right. So I held on

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to that belief as well. And
I was encouraged to write a book,

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and I didn't want to write about
me necessarily, and I didn't want to

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write a grief book, so I
just started. I wrote sharing the tools

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that I used during the worst year
of my life, like twenty twenty two

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was by far, you know,
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here we are and everything is okay, you know. So it's so I

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shared the tools that I used to
overcome this year, which coincidentally are the

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same tools that I have been teaching
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So it was very it was actually
very comforting to know, like, Okay,

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this works for them, and it
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It works for me. M yeah, I know. And here's what I

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found that just like happiness grows when
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of grief lessons, it doesn't grow, but like when you share, you

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realize that like you're helping somebody out, and that definitely shifts the focus because

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you never know that somebody may be
in a situation where you are exactly,

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and that brings that fulfillment to the
soul and helps you find that meaning as

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to what happened exactly. And I
think you know, and that also gives

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you courage, at least in my
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honest and like I describe, you
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at first I was like, oh
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I thought maybe it will affect the
way I work with corporations and things like

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that, that maybe it will affect
the way that I'm able to work and

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I'm a single mom now. But
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if it helps one person out there, then that's good enough. You know,

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like that's it doesn't the rest,
Like if somebody's going to judge by

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that, that's that's on them,
that's not on me. I'm doing my

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part. That's how I feel.
So it gives me courage to go out

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there and do things that are uncomfortable
because maybe that's what somebody else out there

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needs that they won't get unless I
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and here's what I wanted to know, is that you mentioned about your book.

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Tell us about your book, and
tell us about your business. Sure.

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So, so this is a funny
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kids are twenty months apart, so
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boys, and when they were born, I had this idea. I was

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like, I'm gonna be a like, I'm going to be an active mom.

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I'm gonna take them places and go
hiking and blah blah blah and I

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couldn't even run around the block without
gasping for air. So I was like,

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okay, that's my body and what
I wanted to do are just not

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in the same place. So I
decided to run a neighborhood five king and

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and I ran, and I ran
the race and when I finished, oh

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my god, you would have thought
I won an Olympic gold medal. By

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how I was feeling. It was
like me, like I ran a five

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k, Like I was the girl
in the back of the gym smoking pot,

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you know, like I was in
that cycle. That was an Olympic

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gold medal for you. It was
that feeling was my new high. That's

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what I used, right, And
that got me into tryathlons, and I've

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done iron Man tryathons, and I've
done all kinds of things. Thank you.

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But then, so I was a
teacher and I missed my own kids

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kindergarten Halloween party because I had my
class, and I decided to quit my

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job. But I didn't have anything
to do. So I went to the

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principle at my kids elementary school and
I was like, you know what if

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I do a little run club after
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proceeds back to the school and she
said great, and I said great,

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and I started and we had like
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friends basically, and I took them
to a race and guess what happened to

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them? I bet they loved it
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of like, oh my god,
I just did this, and if I

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did this, what else can I
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onto something. So I started creating
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that would be challenging, but yet
the kids were supported so that on the

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other side of it they could be
confident. And that's how I started.

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I created a curriculum. It's called
empower Fit. I started growing my you

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know, I would hear from principles
and from teachers and parents and like,

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there's just something different about the run
club kids. Other schools started calling me

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to go there to their schools,
and in twenty eighteen, we moved from

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Miami to New Mexico. So I
started teaching other moms to start their own

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business to teach this curriculum in their
communities, and today where in over two

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hundred communities in forty one states,
We've coached well over ten thousand children,

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so you know, that's how it
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to workforce development and empowerment for companies
and that's what I'm focused on. Now.

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Wow, congratulations, what a journey
and what an achievement. So tell

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us, like, how do you
work with the people and the corporate?

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Yeah, so corporate is It's funny
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if they had the teachings that we
teach and run club as kids, they

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wouldn't have half of the issues that
they have as adults, right, But

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here we are. And so with
companies, you know, we think that

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having the best strategy is what's going
to ultimately make us successful, and it's

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not. You know, like I
can have the best strategy in the world,

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but if I don't have a confidence
to execute it, it ain't happening.

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So what I work with corporates are
with teams and team meetings and just

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I instill confidence and empowerment using a
lot of the same tools that we use

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for the kids, but obviously in
an appropriate way. We are not run

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outside, but we still it's very
experiential. We play games, there's activities

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and it's a very profound training,
and I'm very proud because at least thirty

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percent of our participants say that the
training is life changing because we're not talking

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about, well, this is how
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you as an individual and how do
you see yourself so that you can become

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better at your craft? Whatever?
That is very profound. Tell us about

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your book. So my book is
called Empowered by Discomfort. It is sold

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anywhere where books are sold, and
it basically are the tools that I used

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to get through that twenty twenty two, you know, the worstier of my

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money. But there are tools that
I teach on these corporate seminars that I

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teach my clients. It's just it's
very easy, practical, unique things that

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you can do quickly that change something. So I don't know about you,

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but I can tell you there's at
least two books. But there's one book

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in particular that I read that changed
the course of my life. And I

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can pinpoint it because it's a book
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University. And in that book it
was such like it hit me at such

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like an internal way that how I
viewed myself from that moment on changed and

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that's what I did in my run
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I teach today to the corporates.
I want my book to be that for

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somebody, you know, because I
know that sometimes all it takes is just

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one exercise or one insight that makes
you realize, oh my gosh, that's

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you know, that was it and
you change that that like, and everything

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changes from then forward. And that's
what I hope my book does. I'm

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sure it will be. You mentioned
a couple of things that it's not about

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the strategy, it's about the confidence
that you have it in yourself for execution.

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So how about sharing a couple of
exercises with our audience so they can

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just kind of go un implement it
to increase their confidence. Sure, and

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you know I suffer from this too, right, Like, Like how many

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times it's like I have like this
great idea or this email, or I

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made a contact with somebody. I'm
like, this is such an important contact,

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and then the emails sitting there and
I just like, I don't hit

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send because I'm afraid of what might
happen if I hit send. So it's

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normal, right, and what I
tell people it's like so if it's normal,

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just embraced it, accepted. Don't
don't beat yourself up because you have

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it. Just understand that discomfort is
part of life, and discomfort or in

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fear, is like a flashing light
that is telling you go here if you

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want to grow. So one thing
that you can too, I call it

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a power will, right, So
we start with our thoughts. Like I

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said, nobody can determ nobody can
make you think one way or another.

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They can influence you, but nobody
can get in your head and actually think

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for you. And that's absolute power. So we start there and then the

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words that you use are just an
expression of those thoughts. And then those

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thoughts that you repeat over and over
and over again become your beliefs. So

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your beliefs can be given you from
the outside like your religion, your culture,

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or your beliefs can also come from
your own experience, you know,

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like oh, I'm pretty, or
I'm smart, or I'm an athletic.

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And beliefs are either going to empower
you to take some kind of action or

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it's going to hold you back.
But beliefs are like the gatekeepers. So

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if you want to change anything in
your life, your thoughts, and then

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to your beliefs, you know,
to figure out what are the beliefs that

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you have and what you know the
belief is going to cause you to take

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an action. That action is going
to have a result, and that result

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is going to feed your thoughts and
belief So I'll give you an example of

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a positive loop, you know,
or let's do a negative one. I'm

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not good at math, right because
I said that at the beginning of our

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interviews. So if I say I'm
not good at math and I expressed that,

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then if that's my belief, then
maybe I don't take a class,

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or I don't go into engineering,
or I don't become an aerospace something or

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other because you know, who am
I kidding? I'm not good at math,

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and then that action is going to
have a result. That's like,

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okay, so maybe I'll go into
marketing or maybe I'll go into something else,

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and that, you know, that
is going to influence my thought.

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It was like, you see,
I'm not good at math. I'm good.

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I'm I'm a right brain or a
left brain, whatever it is.

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I'm an artist. Because I'm not
good at math. That's one loop.

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But if you say, you know, I'm a really smart person, I'm

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very creative, then the actions that
you take, maybe you sign up for

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an improv class, or maybe you
you know, you do you write a

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book, or maybe you do something
that is unique and changing and that will

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have the results of people admiring you
for that will just reinforce It's like,

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well, you know, I'm really
creative. So if you want to change

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anything about your life, change your
thoughts, like if there's you know,

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so if there's not enough money in
the bank account, go back to your

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thoughts. Why ask yourself, well, why don't like why does this matter

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to me? Why do I want
it? Like, start challenging how you

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think about yourself and money, because
that's where the answer is. Yeah.

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No, definitely change the loop and
you'll change the results exactly. So that

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was awesome. Thank you for joining
us today. Do you want to share

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or they can connect with you like
your website and if you have any last

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words for audience. So it's very
simple. You can go to Empowered by

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Discomfort dot com. That that's where
you can see all my different programs.

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I have coaching programs, I have
corporate programs, speaking books, all kinds

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of stuff. So that's kind of
the hub. And you know, shoot

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me an email. There's a contact
information there, just you know, send

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me an email. I tend to
reply if people think I'm crazy, but

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I replied to all the emails that
I get, So shoot me up,

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you know, hit me up,
and I will certainly answer you. Well.

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That's fantastic and a lot of nuggets, a lot of leanings. So

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thank you for joining us. Thank
you it was a pleasure. Absolutely.

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